What Pipeline presents Andrew D. Olivo 6.7.89-6.7.18, an installation of new work by Puppies Puppies that refects on past trauma, the physicality of transitioning, and mourning the death of an old self.
Please listen to this song while reading this text.
Hi Andrew It feels weird to talk to you like this. Pretending as if no one is listening to what I have to say to you. It’s about time I said these things.
I know at times you’ve felt there was never going to be anything good in life and that it will always just feel like managing to get through the days. I know you felt deeply sad very early on and never knew what to make of it. I know you wondered what life would be like if the fght or fight responses weren’t always firing.
I think you’re beautiful. All those people who made you feel like there was nothing beautiful about you they were wrong. All those people who made you feel that femininity in a perceived boy was worthy of hell were wrong All those people who abused you verbally physically and sexually they were wrong all those people who made you feel less than in a moment’s notice they were wrong All those people that said racist shit to you and your family growing up they were wrong All the times as a child where you blindly trusted people older than you and they let you down or hurt you or tried to brainwash you you weren’t in the wrong
I know at times you’ve prayed for a luckier life. A life flled with less trauma and more relaxing. A life void of having had a brain tumor. An easier life in general.
I’m sorry I called you Andrew so much. I just know many of your memories are associated with this name or I guess Drew once you hit a certain age.
Drew as cheesy as this sounds please don’t forget you’re worthy of love
Don’t let the world make you think otherwise. Please know you’ll eventually see yourself as someone you can hug and kiss and say ily
Please know that life ahead won’t be void of more pain but you’ll feel joy you never thought existed....
Know that I love you And that you’re always with me I see you I see your strength